Last and we gonna miss you

Ell's last day! I was back from kampung and in the morning I have a driving class. There I met another friend, Faiz. Come to think of it, I've met a lot of great peoples along my driving lessons.

And for that I was late and hour for work. Sampai sampai terus terjah Ain and Ell dekat offer bin Tuff screaming and hugging them saying, "Lama gila tak jumpa korang, dah tiga hari." as he passed by dekat situ. Dari sebelum tu dah nampak but heck, do I care? I miss them so much la. Haha. Rindu yang dituju sama padahal.

Oh ya, it's Ell last day and most of the promoters were busy preparing for the fair at the concourse on first of April. So we took that opportunity to bergembira menyibuk tolong sama. Tolong Aunty Uson tarik beg penuh stok turun concourse. Ulang alik naik atas. Siap lari lari bagai. Happy sangat gamaknya. Lepas tu tolong angkat bin dari stor. Berat pun berat la. And the most funny part is that Ain tetiba naik troli angkat barang tu yang tengah ditarik oleh abang Akemi tu, nasib baik dia sporting, hahaha.

Ell's last day. Makan sama-sama. And semua buat full shift. Taking photos. And segalanya dramatik cause everything's gonna be the last time for her and for us together. :'( We started this together, teringat lagi sama sama datang interview, sama sama masuk kerja. So sad. But she'll be gone to PLKN in Sarawak and nothing's gonna stop that.

Do you hear me? I'm talking to you

First, I was gleeful cause my punch card was overlapped with his when I was back from rest time. My tag was 271 and his was 281. That explains why our punch card was overlapped. Hehe.

Then, suddenly at 5:30 Ain engaged me and Ell to perform Asar's prayer and we just go. Sampai sampai terus Ain kebas selipar and so does Kak Holi. And my heart stopped beating for a sec that I saw him waiting at the door to get in. And so three of us were waiting for slippers. Two was worn by them, one by don't know who, and left only one wedges pink slipper which he won't wear of course la kan. I resisted Ell from wearing that and leave me. So, we were waiting at the female's side's divider while he was behind the divider where we can't see him. Suddenly this pak cik came. We were alert! Slippers!

But I didn't move a muscle cause I thought he might want that. And I was right. He quickly neared the door but as he saw both of us, he was kinda gelabah and turned back immediately and never showed up again. It was kinda funny. And I just said out loud, "Kalau nak pergi dulu pergi la." Krik krik krik krik. Perhaps he didn't know I was talking to him. So, "Kalau nak pergi dulu pergi la." Krik krik krik krik. Sengal!

Elok je lepas tu Ain sampai. I left immediately taking Ain's and Ell took the wedges so that he'll understand that I was talking to him just now. Sungguh sengal punya palau okey? Balik ambil wuduk tu, I heard he was singing-humming something. Amboi amboi. Dah palau orang lepas tu bahagia je nyanyi nyanyi. Rasa nak je baling selipar hijau tu buat boomerang dekat dia okey?

Hmm. Okay. Cut that tragic story.

Balik solat, me and Ain do what we've planned. Ain brought the cupcakes I bought and the candles she bought in the fitting room while I was distracting Ell. Suddenly Ain called me kononnya to help her with the trouble she got with her b**. So I entered the fitting room and lighted up the candles with the lighter I bought. Ell was innocently waiting outside, haha. We opened the door, called her, and as she turned, we sang Happy Birthday song and she blew up the candles in surprise. Then we photo shoot in the fitting room. Haha. What an epic birthday surprise.

Act, her birthday was the next day which I'll not be around cause I have to balik kampung for my cousin's wedding, for three days. So, it was a celebration in advance la, heh! Sweet tak?

Right in front

His supposed-to-be-off-day. And he really was. So I never expected to see him on Saturday. But during rest time with Tasy, Ain, and Ayu, I saw him in the restaurant! My heart stopped beating for a sec. We took a place to sit which was one table apart. My seat? Directly proportional. Kesian Tasy sebab kena tolak sebab nak hi jack seat dia. Hikhik.

He was watching some videos perhaps. With earphone's one, tilted phone, and cute variety face reaction. We collided our eyes sometimes but I just act natural. He was dressed so casual, the simplest outfit I've ever seen I think. A black Mustang tee, brown pants, and red string slippers! But with a maintain spiky hair. Whoa.

Never ever before

Why the heck it's so different today? First, Spike and Troli came to work at two. I thought they were back from the mosque or somewhat. But it was confirmed as I saw both of them lined up to punch card back home with all of us at ten o clock, night! First time ever!

First when I saw them at seven something, Troli was still the same as he was that afternoon, but not Spike. He was already changed into red shirt, with a black jacket on top, jeans and wet spiky hair. Apa ke besar benar mandat mamat ni weh? And they just hanged at Kak Nana's place. Perhaps there's nothing to do down there at warehouse. Kalau betul la teori Kak Zu, memang untung la Kak Nana.

Despite all that, his head to toe appearance that night was mesmerizing! *melting to under zero degree*

And that night itself me, Ain, and Ell went to school to see ice breaking night at the Kem Perdana. Oh how we miss our school and camping! :'(

Zero countdown

SPM's result day. I dressed up, new shirt, new pants, new shoes. With quite high level of confidence but it turned out to be a tearful drama. First, my name wasn't announced as the best results' list. Second, I get only 1A+ 4A 1B+ 1B 1C+ 1C. I cried out loud as soon as I saw the slip. My heart is broken into pieces. Way down my target. I cried so hard, making others wait so long in the line, and few teachers calmed me down, Cikgu Wana hugged me. It was crazy!

Till I noticed no more my surrounding. I called my mum and I cried, she said it's okay. Then I called my dad with still crying so hard, and I knew he was a bit upset as he looked up quite high to me. Then I called my brother, crying and crying before telling me my result. He comforted me by saying that I did better than him and my result wasn't bad at all.

No words in the world could comfort me though. But I need to redha. Allahu. And I made up my mind just to proceed my second choice to further study. Physiotherapy. That's it. Perhaps that's the one I should do and can do.

The second payday

While everybody was freaking out about result's day on 20th which is the next day, I get distracted all day long by just one scene. I get paid today! The second and last salary at gents dept. And so, my ex-supervisor asked me to take my ID card for a formal identification before handed me the cash. So I went to the office and to the rack where I put my handbag, with heart thumping hard cause I knew that he'll be there in any minutes, back from rest.

So I took my IC and walked normally out. Before making a turn to walk out, I turned my head around for the 'last glance' kononnya. And He. Was. Quite. Right. Behind. Me. And. Was. Looking. At. Me. And. Glanced. Back. Down. As. Our. Eyes. Met! Wasn't that amazing? My legs trembled that whole time until he passed the GMV. Dah la rambut leper! Cute.

Wonder no more

What a great full shift today. With no HRs, and no executives. Heh! Along with Ain and Linda. Hee. First time meeting'im today is when I punched card to rest and he punched card back from rest time. Tuesday. Always when both of us punch card. So epic.

Sec, when me and Linda went to office to take our stuff to get change in the toilet. Suddenly he popped up from that corner and we walked down the stairs right behind him. To get free from the awkward atmosphere, I sang the song played that time under my breath. And he kinda sang along too. Story Of My Life by One Direction. Haha. When we splitted up, Linda asked me, "Awak suka abang tu ke?" Whatha? What a question dude?

As we did full shift, we get to rest two times, so on the second rest time, three of us just sat near the staff entrance gathered all the food we had, cupcakes, buns, and I bought ice cream. Just like that, taking photos, watching sun set. Suddenly, he came out from the staff entrance to go home for sure. And my eyes just tailed him until! he turned to a stairs and went up. His home! Hahaha, finally I know where it is. Thanks to the most epic and sweet rest time ever!

Epic encounter

Maybe talk is too much to hope. So, let's just take it as meet, okay?

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Today, while strolling around the market to kill our remaining rest time. I saw him in the frozen at the back. Grey shirt, hehe. Spiky hair all over today. Nice. :)

When we get back at one o clock (as we rest at twelve like a boss), as we walked down the stairs, suddenly Ain and Linda turned to the Children dept way as I kept walking to where I should go, back to my counter. And then... at the alley next to the escalator, I stumbled upon him, he's going upstairs for his rest time. Hehe.

Then, I went for Zuhur with Linda. When we get back I almost forgot to go upstairs to the office to sign our time in back. Luckily Linda reminded me, hehe. As soon as I was about to reach the sec floor, I can see abang sayur straight from where we were standing ...and someone who's walking slow behind him, hehe. Grey shirt, brown pants, and bright red shoes. Colour blocking! Abang sayur greeted, "Dah rehat dah?" I smiled and replied, "Dah, dah rehat dah." As we passed by both of them, Linda said, "Wanginya abang yang jalan dekat belakang tu." True much! He smelled really really good. But I was a lil bit jealous that he had caught Linda's attention as well though it was nothing at all. Heh! Paranoid much!

Craving!

This supposed to be a thinkless day as today is the off day of his. Saturday, right? But then, after Maghrib, Ell suddenly put me in a constant misery till the time we get back. Why? She told me that she saw Spike wearing a blue shirt, black pants, and... spectacles! Heading upstairs when I was away for Maghrib's prayer. What made me even more curious to see him is because she praised him really high that he's soooo handsome! What a long wait that he never showed up till the last.

To heal my soul, I went to Taman Dagang Food Court to grant my cravings on sate and spaghetti chicken olio. I treated my family with my salary money. At least that made me happy, right? But they were superb! Scrumptious!

Reasons to smile

...and that somebody is me.

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Kamon! It's so cute okay that me and Ell went out of the toilet happily because the door doesn't trouble us today and I quite startled to see him walking from the west side while we both were at the north side, but we just act natural. Our eyes met like there's something he wanna tell and he looked down. I thought that was normal since he stoops his head while walking all the time. Suddenly! Bhhaa! Si abang sayur (who walks in front of him bowing down shield with the row of shirts) startled me intentionally! Luckily what's been out of my mouth was just, "Terkejut!" Just like that. And they smiled. Sengal!

Oh ya, I did a morning shift today, after a while (over a month I think). In the morning we've been served with beauty in our eyes. Hehe. All I did that morning was just sitting next to Ell at Moliform watching people passed by, Troli to be frank. Suddenly, Troli passed for dunno-how-many-times-already, and he suddenly turned back talking to someone. Spike! Unexpectedly! What a complete scene. With me gasping for air and legs trembling, we watched they chatted (they seemed close) and happily left together. Cute seh!

Failed, flawed, flunked!

I took a leave today specially for my JPJ test for the P license. We're on the third session list and I was the forth candidate. We were assigned to do the 'litar' test first, and me of course, panicked like only-He-knows-how and the loose handbrake ruined everything. Yes! The most confident part in the test, I've failed that one! Hill! And that made me disqualified to do the next tasks. And so, I've failed the part II of the JPJ test.

But the road test that I was afraid of the most, I've passed with a total hardship to get through. Making mistakes, flooded with abusive harsh words from the JPJ tester which I don't wanna remember a thing, almost thwarted. But heck, thank God I passed, with the mercy of that annoying JPJ tester of course.

Another test from Him that my housing area had ran out of water supply due to the water ration. Me, my mum, and my sis had to travel everywhere just for wudhu to solat, and to pee. We also had to bought outside food. What a tiring day with not taking a bath since the day before. Until a miracle happened, the water ran again at night and I can shower happily. What a fresh feeling. But one word to describe this day. Tired!

Second and still counting

For the second time. And what a perfect timing on that beautiful Zuhur's time on Sunday. I came after him and I get to wear the slippers as soon as he took it off cause there's no other slippers left. Felt like something flows through my feet and get my legs trembling, again!

Gosh! That charm he got. What more with casual grey long sleeve tee pulled to the elbow's length and black jeans. Of course, it's Sunday and dress code like a total mandat besar.

Like an army

Like an army falling, one by one by one.

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Last standing, Riko. Also had fallen. Leaving no one else behind. It shows that Allah lend them to us just in a short while with a long lasting love. Goodbye Genji, Raizo, Naoki, and Riko. Gonna miss you all. :')

Good comes after bad

Naoki had fallen today right in front of my eyes. Sad. But I grew stronger after Genji's death, remember? I've set myself to prepare for the worst since Raizo died too.

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Gentle. It's cute that on the way down to the toilet for wudhu we get down together, with I'm at the front and I open the door for us. And on the way back up to the musolla, together again with I'm at the back, and he opened the door for us. Suh-weet! Ain't it?

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"Will one day you open your 'door' for me?"

For the first time

Remember when I said it's only on Asar's prayer? Till I once asked Ell, have she ever stumbled upon him during other prayer times, and she said no.

Then, guess what, I get to see it today on Zuhur, beauty plus happiness. As well as Asar. So, it's twice la kan? Subhanallah. Made my day.

Also, there's one funny incident today. I served a Chinese customer, giving her few sizes of pants she asked for to try them on. To wait for her, I went to sit with Ell and Linda at Auderey. We chat and chat until I didn't realize the customer was already out of the fitting room. Linda heard she was calling me, "Amoi, amoi, amoi." but I didn't and perhaps Linda had no idea the customer was calling for me. Then the customer had reached her limit and shouted out loud, making a hailer's funnel with both of her hands, "Amooooooiiiiii!!" The funny thing was, the distance between us was just few steps away. Hahahaha. What an experience! It was the first time I've been shouted by a customer. It gonna be something funny for me, Ell, and Linda to recall.

Oh ya, today's my third last driving class. It was so cold driving up the hill at Hulu Langat in the morning. Cool, ain't it?

Off day and outing!

Naa! I ain't a shopaholic after all. I just like to shop when I have something in my mind that I wanted. And so, it's my off day. Come to think of it, since I work there, it's the forth time I have an off day. So, in short, shopaholic no, workaholic yes? Haha.

I went to TS with my bro and lil sis. Went for a movie. We just stumbled the cinema and quickly agreed to watch Non Stop with Liam Neeson as the main role. Superb movie. I like it. And then, we went for a shoes hunt. Me and my bro wanna shop shoes. After wandering around, he grabbed Dr Cardin's and I grabbed the ones on my mind, a pair of grey All Star Converse. Hehe.

Just me

Quote: I'll be fine as long as you stay single.

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Why the heck that lately you become really really attractive, huh? Why?? Yesterday. Today. ...and still counting.

The thing is, everything that I spilled on that somebodies, they actually didn't get the whole picture. In silent, I nodded understand. Who's gonna believe me anyhow after ALL that phases? That's why I keep this one toned down. ...while praying that this one isn't just a phase. Cause after all, "No one understands me better than myself." Righto?

No one understands that I've never been this serious (perhaps I look just the same like before). No one understands that I seriously wannim unconditionally. That sometimes I can smell the perfume. That I have an intuition when it comes to something 'boutim. That I think I could accept just the way it is. That I feel worth it to spend a lifetime for, insya-Allah. No one's gonna get this. No one. So, it's just you and me again, bloggie. Zara, cool?

Nomad again

Hello, EO. Tiring first day. Bored whole day. Feeling hopeful that this is my final pit stop till the very last day I become a worker there. Insya-Allah. :) At least I'm near with my friends. No one left at gents after all.

Just a question, is my counter located strategically. It's a yes and a no actually. :) Heh!