Accept the fate

Time really flies. It's third week of January already. And CNY holiday starts. The day that I've been waiting since first day of school. Teruk kan? But, really, I feel relieve anyway. After over three weeks walking in hell! Yeap, that bad. Been through a lot of stress. Only Allah knows how bad it was. Now, whole week without pressure. The pressure of homework-kena-hantar-esok-siapkan-no-matter-what. Although only one pressure out, and truck-loads still inside, at least the burdens reduce. Alhamdulillah.

School. Kadang-kadang amatlah menguji kesabaran. Why must it be that way? Lepas satu, satu. But I trust, He put me into this, He'll help me to go through this. Insya-Allah, just have faith kan? It really not necessary for YOU to actually show off when you are standing under the limelight, spotlight or whatever light including torchlight and lightning. When I look at you what I see is you are making a 'L' sign on your forehead just like I'm a big looser. Let's switch our position. You'll know when people take your feelings for granted.

Okay, put aside that issue. Now, I'm in the middle of two path. Which one to choose? Okay, I get an answer, but, should I go deeper and put myself between two choices again? My friends did. Nothing left for me to not to. It hurts my feelings to stay. This if when I look it on that side (huge side of daily life actually). But, there are few things (little things that is not that important to others) that make me berbelah-bahagi. Trust me I hate this feelings. And situation too.

Life. It has it's ups and downs. Now, I'm deep down there. In a dark hole. Life is ragging me now. Can't wait for the next stage of life. At this time, I will full-time training my heart, myself to get familiar with this situation. I need tonnes of patience, seriously. I have to love my life just the way it is. There ain't no life without challenges, kan? You love your life, your life will love you, for sure. And I'm very sure that one day when I turn back, I'll thank this moment for teaching me about facing the challenges, accepting the fate. This moment is a bridge between faith and acceptance. I know that everybody hopes that everyone will understand us, kan? I'm not an exception too. If world is like that. Now, I'm hoping for a better future. Insya-Allah. Kulla syai'in mumkin.