Green with envy

It's not it. Yah, then what was it? I don't envy, it just that it's a feeling. I ain't a green eyed monster though. I'm just offended. Yeah, a good one to describe, umbrageous. Really do, really much. The trials come one by one, insistently, one after another, endlessly. After a matter subsided, another emerging. If this what gonna happen to me throughout this month, this year maybe? I just seek for Allah, to embrace my heart because I'm week, to aid me for I am hurt. *take a deep deep breath and blow*

Envy? Envy for something that I don't have and will not able to get? Envy for something that don't even a part of what I should have? Should I? No, I shouldn't and I pray so much that I won't. For what actually? It is silly much to hold on to nothing, right? Yeap, while the reality is 'working on it, working on it!'. Insya-Allah. Furthermore, I'm trying, kan? Instead of sit back and doing nothing watching what happens like watching an investigation of crime.

Insya-Allah, when we strive, we try, He'll pave the way. Ameen. :)