After a heaps of troubles I went through, I've made up my mind to get out of it. It just that I need that strength, strength from Him. I'll make a change, totally change. I'll erase all the unnecessary things from my past book, or to make it traceless, I'll rip the page and start with new one.
Today, as it's first day of this month, here, me, kinda make a vow to myself to change every single perception, view, goals, direction, and way to achieve my goals. There'll be no more mere as it'll be the biggest stonewall for me to achieve my goals, and alhamdulillah, I'm scraping it from the very me, throwing all those in the trash basket, but well, still need a second to adjust.
The latest thing is there is no more fogs, no longer fuzzy, it's now clear as crystal. I can see what I really want! (I've been setting this in my mind since few weeks ago for actual). I wanna be a doctor (please anyone don't laugh cause I'm damn serious). No more strum. Let's be like last year, if there is desire and effort, 'obstruction' is a meaningless word. Hidupkan balik semangat tahun lepas! Study group all those, tahun lepas boleh, takkan tahun ni tak boleh, ye tak? I've prove it last year, why not prove it again? And again? I'll do anything to perform well in my exams and get the best in my SPM. Insya-Allah He'll pave me the way.
Last but not least, please please please decrease my sloth and increase my diligence, effort, faith towards Him, and the most important is moga dipermudahkan segalanya, dilapangkan dada untuk menerima ilmu, diberkati selalu. Insya-Allah, ameen ameen ya rabbal alameen. :)
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