That's just the way the story goes

Here I am, sitting in front of the screen, waiting for the clock tick tock-ing for the second's hand of the clock to strike twelve, and it'll be NEW YEAR 2013! To be frank, I don't feel a thing at this moment. But to think it's REAL that few more hours it's gonna be 2013, I'm speechless. Seriously, I'm dumbfounded here. *sigh*

Belum pun sempat nak rasa happy for this year, 2012, dah nak tahun bahru dah pun. Tapi tipu la kalau cakap there's nothing to smile about, kan? Ada je. To recall, tahun ni tahun yang paling banyak kali mandi/main hujan. Best apa. Kenangan tu takkan lupa la. Macam budak-budak je (infact that is what I am). 

Maybe this year brings a lil bit difference sebab I am separated with my besties last year. Dua orang tercampak ke kelas lain, dua orang lagi go to the boarding school. But, for that, aku jadi rapat balik dengan my elementary school's besties (bukan la tak rapat langsung tahun tahun lepas, tapi get the bond tighter gitu?). Even tak la rapat yang kongsi segala benda (not to them, it's just me who vent all out), tapi it was fine. Biasa la tu dah kita appear in between, ye tak? Tapi, me and the two more peers yang tercampak tu pun still okay what.

Maybe jugak I kind of don't feel anything happy because of my study. To admit, study tahun ni sangat-sangat hard. Science stream puts me in the double bind. How sparkle we are last year don't reflect us this year. Orang tak pandang dah result kita tahun lepas. Yang orang nak tahu, that particular moment which yang worse than me last year storeyed arranged above me. They pushed me deep down to the bottom. ...and I don't even know how to climb back up. I'm weak.

Low self-esteem because of people above you in academic and when-people-notice-who's-beside-you-and-not-you-like-a-useless-anonymous-sidekick might hurts too. But to think of the bright side (I always do this), it means He give us chance to wait for the real soulmate. My pemilik tulang rusuk yang dah tertulis di luh mahfuz. I learned that a lot from Timeline's friends. Thanks Ash (especially).

But... SREEETTT! Cut the dark side off. Good things this year? *telunjuk di dagu* I learned to be a great leader a lot this year. Thanks to PRS for that. To my same-batched PRS, you give me lessons a lot, so do the fivers. Next year, I'll be a senior. Perhaps it's good to be on the top again.

Then, *scrolling my memories* this year, I found something, a feeling, that I don't know what. I'll look forward for it next year to ensure. It gave me lessons jugak antara sedar dan tak. Also, great to share moments dengan semua ini.

Oh by the way, this year, I just noticed that I fell in love (still do) with this car, Audi R8 V10 and superbike Yamaha R1. They're so coolio, no doubt!

Oh, I know that's not all to be told, but I can't recall no more. If I do, I promise I'll write in the upcoming entries (which is next year of course). Oh by the way, next year there's a big exam waiting for me, so I wanna announce that I'll tone down blogging right away. My commitments will rise up high to. So, till you hear from me soon, adios. ...and Happy Celebrating Tick Tock Tick Tock New Year 2013 on the clock now. Bye!