Seventeen days

Here it goes. Seventeen bittersweet days and I'm done with PC. Like Tasy said, "Semuanya mesti ada hikmah." True much. If I didn't transfer to ladies dept, I won't get culture shock till I learn more about peeps' attitude, that I need to aware more of what I'm gonna say. Then, the highlight of all, I won't get any chance to speak with him at all if I didn't work there. So, thanks PC for all the things that I've been through these 17 days.

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Full shift on this 'last day'. With an epic encounter. Suh-weet! :)

The Seven Year Hitch

"Kev, why put yourself through all these?"

"Cause you're worth it. And... I think I'm falling in love with you."

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Have you ever watched this television movie? If not, you should watch it. Highly recommended. Super sweet this movie. About friendship and love. And that guy who plays Kevin (Darin Brook) is super cute. :)

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Lost and gain

He took Genji away from us. From my family. He was a cute baby kitten. He died right in front of my eyes. And I buried him with my mother. We made a small grave to him at that corner of our housing area. Rest in peace as you have suffered these two days. Gonna miss you, dear. Won't forget that you always slept on me. 17 Jan 14 - 25 Feb 14.

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Oh ya, me, Ell, Nik, Dil, and Cuna went to school for counselling session about UPU. Then me and Ell did our things to settle at few banks, and we ended up getting nothing solved and we lunched at KFC, haha. And today, I finally met Afiq! Alhamdulillah. Was feeling choked up meeting him after all this time. Yes, he DID looked for me few times before. And good to know that we'll be in touch later on. Like I said, he really appears every time I'm down. Soon, I got a good news that I'll have a new place to start on March soon. Though a bit remote, and in ladies, I won't be picky anymore. Promise!

Not even close

Since the day I figured out my feelings towards you, I'm never better off without you.

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"I felt a stab of pain in my chest. I thought it was a chest congestion. But somehow as soon as I saw you, the pain in my chest vanished." - My Name Is Khan

Though it was only a split of sec, seeing you smile, I thought, that would do. :)

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I'm a bit crestfallen cause the mister that was trying to help me to find a job as soon as I resign in PC, didn't help much but caused even more trouble. He makes others (especially the superiors) dislike me even more. It's enough that I've been reported due to discipline problems by others who might be spiteful to me. I hate it when I'm being hated for the things I didn't do. And now, I must seem annoying having 'someone big' admitted to be my relative and try to find a job for me. Hello, I can do this on my own, mister. You are making things even more complicated. And I don't know what else to say rather than hoping that this issue won't reach his knowledge. Enough of humiliating tragedies I have had.

Two years without rain

A day without you is like a year without rain. -Selena Gomez

Make it two then.

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"People won't get lucky all the time. My luck has just ended I guess."

Gents dept rejected me. The only vacancies are shoes in gents, for only 17 days, and one at ladies located in front of the escalator. God, I hate that location! Where should I go? What should I do? Allah, give me a hint.

Only one

It was one step closer but then I took two steps backwards.
That strange fate brought us closer but I turned it down.

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It was super strange and jaw-dropping to hear that the mister who offered me that job, was really really kinda beg me to accept that offer, and I was kinda almost said yes seeing his intensity but I was overawed when he told me that vacancy is for a clerk! He said he used to have two clerks but one of them resign when she get married. This means, the other one is YOU-KNOW-WHO! And I'll be the second clerk? I was gasping for air for a moment.

Soon after that encounter, I got to know that there are few bad gossips about me. It was just a few misunderstandings that can make others have a bad view about me. God knows how haywired I was. Luckily it ended with me solving that misunderstanding with the person directly, and that mister can't give me the job cause I am underage. I blew out a relieved whistle.

First, I don't think I can work under him. Second, I'm quite aware about bad mouths that might talk about me that me, who is no body suddenly jadi mandat besar. And, after that misunderstanding is settled, my only choice is to get back up which was my first choice after all. So, maybe this is it. :)

And for THAT, I believe, if fate could bring us that close, it could do it again some other time, right? It's not a once in a lifetime chance right? Insya-Allah kheir. :)

I don't love you

...like I did yesterday.
Cause I'm falling deeper
...and the feelings are growing stronger.