Tuesday, 15 April 2014

Throughout this wonderful journey



Off-day as today is Tuesday and co-incidently my repeat test falls on this date. So I thought I should give my all cause my license are going to die real soon and I wouldn't have any more free dates.

Huge lie if I said I wasn't nervous. Moreover there wasn't any practice yesterday and yesterday itself I knew that my test is today. So, I woke up really early in the morning, Kak Liza picked me up at 7 something and I just did few practices on hill, parking, and three pointers. ...which I thought quite convincing and satisfying.

Soon, Kak Liza treated me breakfast as my test gonna start late. Then, I felt really sleepy like dozing off so I went to the surau to sleep. And I did. ...sampai meleleh air liur basi. Shh! Haha. Suddenly I felt like peeing so I went to the toilet and soon after that the third repeat session was called! Lucky me! Cause according to the time, it's not the time yet.

And so I just did it. While waiting for my turn, I made a 'do-not-disturb' face like I was someone who's really arrogant. The reason I did that was because I wanna avoid any conversation about failure this and that with others. It was a huge and part of major distraction. Trust me! I've been there twice. So I just sat and salawat and trying to calm myself down as cool as I could. Suddenly the wind blew right in front of my face, like a sign from Him, saying that, "I'm with you." And amazingly I was able to smile!

In that car, while waiting for that person in front of me, I adjusted the seat, testing the handbrake, gear and everything that could make me feel comfortable while I was salawat-ing and smiling. And as I was called to proceed, here we go! Bismillahirahmanirrahim! I smoothly stopped on the yellow line and smoothly climbed down that horror hill. As soon as I passed that one, I couldn't describe how thankful I was. Alhamdulillah.

Here come the next test. Parking. I did the parking at the hardest parking lot. With additional hill skill. I wasted time on that. My legs (especially left) were shivering like hell and the engine died about three times already! And I few times almost hit the poles due to the hilly road's surface. But then again, alhamdulillah. I passed that one too. Then, the three pointer, I just proceed, made a turn, though the car was a bit slanted, I managed to get out well. Alhamdulillah again. I parked the car and fleed to the JPJ (that was on that day when I failed). I signed the form and thanked him. And that's it my journey has ended.

Come to think of it, there should be a silver lining in every cloud. So I hold on to that. Through this misery yet wonderful journey, I've met a lot of great people that's inspiring, friendly, and loveable. I can call them 'friends'. So, throughout this journey I officially wanna thank Kak Liza my teacher, and friends I've met from the very beginning till the last, Atiqah, Adib Farhan, Luqman Hakim, Amer Azrai, Haniza, Hui Xian, Kak Shafikah, Aini Sue, Kak Liza's son (I dunno his name), pak cik tua tu, abang motor tu, Faiz, Zhareef and everybody that I forget to mention. Thank you all for adding some colours in this wonderful journey of my life.

Now, I kinda get it. I should clear my heart from hatred, envy, underestimating others, feeling annoyed, pride (riak) and all yang mazmumah la senang cerita. And insya-Allah khier, He will be with us, and ease everything that we do and gonna do as long as we put Him first in every niat. And He loves when we prayed to Him over and over again.

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p/s: Something choked me up this morning before I was off for the test. My mom kissed both of my cheeks for blessing I thought.

Monday, 14 April 2014

I was mixed up


Does he thinks that he'll look that cool when he smokes? Hell no. Err, actually he did. But hey! Aaa! I'm speechless. Okay. Rewind!

Again! I was on my rest time alone again. Done eating, I passed by the w/house as I was heading to surau. Okay, cleared. He wasn't there. So I kept walking with thoughts that perhaps he was already upstairs or something bla bla bla, suddenly at the back entrance I saw Abang Sayur ...and him! Throwing up some boxes at the garbage bin and there was a cigar between Abang Sayur's fingers and I scan his left hand and there you go! There was a cancer stick between his fingers in his left hand too! I was speechless and shocked!

Abang Sayur greeted me as I kept on walking, I replied but my eyes were on his face and he was looking at me as well and he feelinglessly put that cancer stick in his mouth and continue what he was doing earlier. I was like... what the beck? Part of me rasa nak tampar je muka kerek dia. Ell, do come hear please! I need you! :'(

What I felt? Hmm. Perhaps relieved that I finally see that with my own eyes? Maybe. Speechless? I really did. Shocked? Of course! Trying not to believe! Yes, I feel like I'm in denial. Part of me wished that if and only if I didn't see that. Tapi tu la, bila Allah nak tunjuk depan mata. Frust? Maybe, a lil. Though I once said, I don't really care bout that. But wouldn't it be better if he didn't? Terima apa adanya? Yes, I know. Cause it's not that I never know bout that, but witness it yourself and hearing from others (though from a reliable source) are really two different feelings. I bet!

Friday, 11 April 2014

I chuckled


My supervisor came, making me late 15 minutes for my rest time. And so, I rest alone, done eating and head to surau straight away even though I'm on my period. I just sat back and leaned on the divider playing with my phone.

Suddenly I heard the door's opened and my heart sensed it. Must've been him. Suddenly the door was banged closed and I was shocked, and he was too as I heard dia melatah, "Oh mak kau dah meletop!" Then he blabbered blaming the door. Then I felt him right at my back (split just by the divider). I held my laugh so hard as I thought that was so funny! I felt really close to him as I felt he restrained against the divider right at my back taking off his shoes while singing something I couldn't catch up.

I kinda 'waited' until he get back as I really wanted to see him performing solat (see? I admitted!). Trust me, seeing him in that condition is the best scene ever! Subhanallah. It was my bad for doubting him not performing solat anymore as we never stumbled upon each other like since the palau thing day? And not to count the last time I actually SEE him performing solat. I was grateful for that opportunity. Really do. :) Making today a beautiful Friday!


Thursday, 10 April 2014

Happy anniversary!



Hey! It's my third's month work anniversary. :)
...and should be along with Ell too.
But she's no longer here.

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Oh ya, today's rest time 'we' rest at the same time. As we're bout to punch card in, we passed them (Abang Sayur and him), from that Guardian's door we can clearly see Abang Sayur was smoking and he was next to him. I was kinda afraid to see THAT FACT in front of my eyes, but as he turned when Abang Sayur greeted me, not the cigar was in his mouth but his thumb! What a cute scene! Hahaha. He was eating something la tu. Hahaha.

And I walked back home today. Why? Cause as soon as I exited the staff entrance, I saw him, perhaps heading to eat after back from work. Without thinking, I just walked back home and we kinda did cross the road together though from afar. As long as he noticed me, that would do. Heh!

Tuesday, 8 April 2014

After an exhausting week


Been through a hard and exhausting week, and finally an off day! I was tired since Thursday last two weeks, morning shift and packing before off to Terengganu, the next day off to my village, then the next day was the wedding, then the next day we headed home, then the next day I have a driving class and straight away did a full shift and involved in helping the fair at the concourse (physically tired) , the next day was the JPJ's test that I failed (mentally tired), the next day was the they when I was in charged to check stock in market and then my supervisor came to check stock that made me have to do a full shift again, the next day is when we hangout at TS to celebrate Ell and played bowling before working at 6 P.M. , the next day I did a morning shift just to accompany Ain to meet my bro at night, and that Saturday and Sunday full shift again, and Monday with morning shift and that's it! Off day on Tuesday.

What a summary! But trust me. It was really really tiring to death! So I spent this day awesomely, waking up late, doing some non-tiring house chores, surfing internet, but then! On the evening, I suddenly feel so sick like throwing up. And yes, I did threw up until I have nothing more to vomit. And I was a bit light-headed after that. Come to think of it, it wasn't weird as what I've been through that past week was more than what I can take. But, soon after Maghrib's prayer I felt a whole lot better so I asked my parents and lil sis out as I feel like I don't go out with them for a long time! And we just did a lil shopping in Tesco and hangout at mamak before we headed home for me to catch up my fave series, TVD! As always. And that's it. My rest day! And I really did rest!

Sunday, 6 April 2014

Sty... lo!


Dia. Tukar. Gaya. Rambut?
So jaw-dropping.
But like I said, "You look just fine either way or whatever it is that you do."
Heh! Sue me!

Friday, 4 April 2014

Before sayonara #2



Ell's wish granted and now it's Ain's turn. She wanna go out with my brother so badly. This made me have to change my shift from noon to morning. But it wasn't that bad as I have the opportunity to see him very often that day as he passed there several times, non stop till the evening.

Ain came to have lunch with us during our rest time. Then Ell came in the evening to pass everyone her cupcakes. Mine and Nik's were a lil bit special cause it came along with a present. A perfume each. So sweet. And that was the last time I saw her until the next three months.

And the plan at night was to watch a movie at eight but my bro was really late that he arrived home at 9:40 p.m. like that. So we switched the plan just to eat dinner and we ended up at Burger King. My first time too. But Ain was full. Biar la janji dapat keluar. And we went home almost midnight. Sayonara to her and hope to see her very soon in any time.