Huge lie if I said I wasn't nervous. Moreover there wasn't any practice yesterday and yesterday itself I knew that my test is today. So, I woke up really early in the morning, Kak Liza picked me up at 7 something and I just did few practices on hill, parking, and three pointers. ...which I thought quite convincing and satisfying.
Soon, Kak Liza treated me breakfast as my test gonna start late. Then, I felt really sleepy like dozing off so I went to the surau to sleep. And I did. ...sampai meleleh air liur basi. Shh! Haha. Suddenly I felt like peeing so I went to the toilet and soon after that the third repeat session was called! Lucky me! Cause according to the time, it's not the time yet.
And so I just did it. While waiting for my turn, I made a 'do-not-disturb' face like I was someone who's really arrogant. The reason I did that was because I wanna avoid any conversation about failure this and that with others. It was a huge and part of major distraction. Trust me! I've been there twice. So I just sat and salawat and trying to calm myself down as cool as I could. Suddenly the wind blew right in front of my face, like a sign from Him, saying that, "I'm with you." And amazingly I was able to smile!
In that car, while waiting for that person in front of me, I adjusted the seat, testing the handbrake, gear and everything that could make me feel comfortable while I was salawat-ing and smiling. And as I was called to proceed, here we go! Bismillahirahmanirrahim! I smoothly stopped on the yellow line and smoothly climbed down that horror hill. As soon as I passed that one, I couldn't describe how thankful I was. Alhamdulillah.
Here come the next test. Parking. I did the parking at the hardest parking lot. With additional hill skill. I wasted time on that. My legs (especially left) were shivering like hell and the engine died about three times already! And I few times almost hit the poles due to the hilly road's surface. But then again, alhamdulillah. I passed that one too. Then, the three pointer, I just proceed, made a turn, though the car was a bit slanted, I managed to get out well. Alhamdulillah again. I parked the car and fleed to the JPJ (that was on that day when I failed). I signed the form and thanked him. And that's it my journey has ended.
Come to think of it, there should be a silver lining in every cloud. So I hold on to that. Through this misery yet wonderful journey, I've met a lot of great people that's inspiring, friendly, and loveable. I can call them 'friends'. So, throughout this journey I officially wanna thank Kak Liza my teacher, and friends I've met from the very beginning till the last, Atiqah, Adib Farhan, Luqman Hakim, Amer Azrai, Haniza, Hui Xian, Kak Shafikah, Aini Sue, Kak Liza's son (I dunno his name), pak cik tua tu, abang motor tu, Faiz, Zhareef and everybody that I forget to mention. Thank you all for adding some colours in this wonderful journey of my life.
Now, I kinda get it. I should clear my heart from hatred, envy, underestimating others, feeling annoyed, pride (riak) and all yang mazmumah la senang cerita. And insya-Allah khier, He will be with us, and ease everything that we do and gonna do as long as we put Him first in every niat. And He loves when we prayed to Him over and over again.
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p/s: Something choked me up this morning before I was off for the test. My mom kissed both of my cheeks for blessing I thought.
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