A complete change of mood, situation, feelings and etc in one day? A normal thing to happen. Yesterday, it was amazing! Me, Ally, Ain, Wani, Tash went to PWTC for PBAKL '12. It was great. Not much to say but it really was, though normal thing happens, bought books, met some authors, jalan-jalan, taking photos. :) But, there is one author I really wanna meet so badly, but I guess I was a bit ...late? (Who was it? Let only me know 'bout this, okie?). I'm really frustrated as I think I'm not able to be there again, huhh.
Now I've about 11 more novels to be read, hehe! Yet I know, exam come first. Y'all, wait ya! Huhu. Hmm, it was quite exhausting. Walk, walk, walk. Many funny things happened too. That abang Gempak Stars and macam-macam lagi (actually malas nak elaborate each and every part). Ngahaha. Oh ya, we also bought button badge everyone each written our names, jeongmal yeppuda. *wide smile*
We walk around all over, till the second floor too as Tash wanna buy a dictionary. Ally was wondering around wanting some balloons. Childish level highly increase, huh? But, there's a sis told us, to get balloon we need to get some IQ test, ...but with parent guide! I wanna laugh on the floor that time, it was a children booth lah! After done, we stop by JSAdiwarna's booth and we spent a quite long time there, to make a decision to buy which book, well, duit dah kurang, haha! At last, we decided. That abang there gave us a balloon thanking for our earnestness, and Ally was happy for it.
It's not that all. We take photos outside too. Even in the ladies. Haha. Disturbing some promoters, and many more. Before taking the train back, we had McD's chocotop. Delicious! And that's it. Almost all. Malas nak cerita everything, not in mood.
It was yesterday's. Today? Emm, kinda lose one from the stock maybe? Hard to explain the truth, what I feel. It's not hard, just my ego like restraining me? Yeah, true much. Okay, to be frank, I do feel the lost. Act, after this one-by-one-of-leaving-me, I realize that I was relying too much on others. Like someone with a lots of paddles. Now, one by one were being pulled, forcing me to stand on my own feet in a short period, while I'm not ready, when I'm still in the comfort zone.
Currently, while I'm setting my determination in my future, that time I was forced to do everything all alone, relying on no one, go on what've been set on my very own feet. It's tough, although not everyone can see it. Now, the only paddle left is my very own feet. Which I need to start stepping forward focusing on study and only study. Strive for success, keep that in mind! I walk alone... all alone.
Strong, strong gal! Hwaiting! Bersusah-susah dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian. Insya-Allah. Kurigo, all the best for everyone, including me, moga Allah permudahkan segalanya.
And for my bro, so long, till then. Kalke, jal ga.
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