7th December. One of the saddest days in my life. Things turned out the way it shouldn't be. It was suppose to be a surprise from them (my parents) to buy me a new phone (as I'm the only one in family yang still pakai telefon baling anjing). I was surprise (but in the other way). I was not happy like how I should. I don't want to change my phone. I love my Sony Ericsson K660i. I'm happy with that. I create my own world with that.
Well, that's one of my reason. Sec, I don't want to cut my sim card (yela, phone these days kan pakai microsim). That sim card meant a lot to me, so many memories. Thirdly, if I want to change a phone, I'd like to work first, then I'll buy it myself. Why? Cause I'm a bit high-demanding ...and I realize that. Sebab tu tak nak menyusahkan sesiapa. I want s4 ke, iPhone5s ke, atau apa-apa yang large screen (and obviously I haven't decided yet ...then imagine how can I make a choice in 5 minutes?). Next, it's obvious that my sis won't like it if I get something more expensive than her. ...and of course I felt guilty. Moreover, I don't know a single thing about smartphone. Blur okay?
...then imagine how tense I was to make a choice with everything around me was pushing me, thinking of all the reasons, with my mum getting angry and forcing, with my dad asked the guy to brought out the phones to display. It was the most dramatic scene when someone buy a handphone (mana ada orang berdrama dekat kedai telefon sampai macam tu sekali?). Out of tense, I just asked my brother to pick one and he picked an iPhone 4. I was just pasrah je la walaupun takde la suka mana phone tu, nak buat macam mana, s4 mahal kot. Kena consider jugak my dad punya duit.
...and the feeling? Not happy at all. My sis dah macam makan jeruk sawi je. My mum dah marah-marah (the greatest donor to my stress). Mesti that pekerja kedai telefon tu pelik dengan kita orang (sampai muka dia cute pun takde hati nak usyar betul-betul). Dah la my sim pun kena potong, buat muka takde perasaan je la waktu tu walaupun jiwa tu dah penuh perasaan yang bercelaru haru biru laut!
Then, to bring up the normal atmosphere (kononnya), my dad pun bawak la kita orang pergi minum dekat stall yang penuh dengan budak-budak tak semenggah jalanan gitu. Boleh pulak my sis yang dari tadi buat muka sawi jeruk tu tiba-tiba menangis (sebab mak masih blabbing pasal perangai kita orang yang memalukan la apa la, hai, salah aku jugak). Aku pun apa lagi, dengan tensionnya, dengan guiltynya, terus pecah jugak empangan dekat situ, my mum terus mengamuk (buatkan kita orang lagi kuat menangis). Sumpah tension! Sumpah! Dah la sedih, stress, kena marah lagi. Kalau takde iman, entah apa dah aku buat agaknya.
Orang sekeliling pun dah usyar kita orang macam alien kepala tiga je. Tapi, I can't stop. I can't. Lantak la malu ke apa. Aku dah tak kisah (now I understand how characters in the novels nangis macam hape je tak kira depan orang ramai pun). Semua dah mengamuk, kita orang pun blah je la, even dalam lif pun tak habis lagi. Sumpah sedih okey? Tension! Sumpah cakap, aku jauh lagi bahagia bila pakai telefon cabuk, orang tak kacau aku, aku tak kacau orang. Peh! Nak tercabut biji mata aku. Ni la namanya surprise jadi tragedi!
The whole day, I don't even care pun about that telefon that causes all that. Sampaikan charge pun my abang yang buat, I don't even glance at it. But the next day, I have to sebab I need to text my friend about something and that's the only purpose I guna jugak phone tu. It gave me bad memories, y'know, It's hard. I miss my K660i. Tu lagi bermakna agaknya sebab tu hadiah masa dapat result UPSR. I think I change phone everytime I change my phase of life, dulu phone masa sekolah rendah lain, nak masuk sekolah menengah yang K660i tu, nak masuk phase afterschool, iPhone 4 pulak. Entah la, it started with something bad but I hope it'll bring joy and happiness in my life after this. T'sal.
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