Worn out waiting

Now I know that waiting...
killing me inside,
tearing me apart,
ripped my heart,
turned me upside down,
put me in misery,
teared me up.

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I didn't know that it'll turn out to be that worse. Sehinggakan tiba-tiba pulak boleh jadi cengeng macam tu sekali. Especially when never showed up till the last moment. I really feel I'm being stood up. I guess it's a preparation to won't never meet again. Baru four days, dah turned out that topsy turvy. Can't believe to recall how my eyes were being glued to the escalator scanning every single one who passed by. Can't imagine how bad it'll be when I get used to 'em. A super long wait. Felt like the time moved really slow. Six days were like six degrees of separation (ceh tetiba masuk tajuk lagu :P). I'm in a huge disbelief to know the fact that 4/10 days could influence me that bad, would effect me that deep. Sungguh, I'm worn out waiting. It's agonizing to think that the time is already decreased by a day.