But it's empty

It's my 'off day' before I started in the new dept tomorrow, the ladies dept. The bad things are, it's no longer the strategic place (missing gents dept), lesser work time (mostly the last four hours), and lesser work time (with wrong timing)! I hate that fact the most. I really don't care the good fact that my pay has been risen (which I don't really care at all). I just wanna be there, as long as I can in everyday.

I started to feel that our distance are growing bigger, separation is nearing. It feels that bad, I can't imagine how am I gonna face the real separation. It's like my situation now is teaching me slowly to get used to the absence, and yes, that's a truly sad fact. My heart's kneaded. I feel more comfy in silence (perhaps this's a grown up's way to handle absence).

Today's my third driving lesson. Then, I straight away went out with Nik, Dil, Cuna, and Nis. We went to TS just grabbing some foods and updating. Nik's getting married. We chats quite long. I told them 'bout my friends there, my bestie. Then we headed home. But I planned with Dil to go out again in the evening to my work place to buy the shirt that I aimed for a long time ago. Well, that's just the excuse cause I can go there with or without Dil, but I feel like I need to vent on her about my current situation since she's the one I've been talking about serious matters, it's always her. I spilled everything on her while we're on our way while Cuna and Nis are walking far behind us.

We stayed quite long after I bought that shirt, after Cuna and Nis headed back. We hanged at Ain's place waiting for'im to pass by to 'introduce' to Dil. But he didn't show up. And I just thought perhaps it's not Dil's chance to meet'im. Another sad fact is that Ain's busy with her return stock since yesterday (she got'is help and explanation) and she gonna continue it tomorrow which a 2/5 chances that I'll be there tomorrow and 3/5 chances that I won't be there YET cause I work for THE LAST FOUR HOURS, remember? *read in a sarcastic tone*

Allah, what's the best for me
...just be it.
May he's the best thing for me.

Since a day passed without'im laying over my eyesight.
...and I feel choked up and pathetic.
...and it's empty.

p/s: Others might like off-day but sincerely, I don't. I even prefer working full day. See?