When everything gets complicated

There's always a choice after everything, even if it's hard, it will always be. So, when everything gets complicated, I chose to pretend nothing happen, lying to myself, and finally get over it. I know I can, it was just a stupid something that shouldn't have happen to me. Moreover, it's been two days I didn't think much 'bout it. So, it won't be hard, ye tak?

C'mon. It's not the end yet. There will be a long path I need to walk more. This's just a stop by. Alhamdulillah that the distraction really done its job! :) I'm fine right now. I don't know if this is because it's school break or what, but I really can adjust it. Even if I face it, a sudden pop in my heart occurs, but I'll be okay, insya-Allah.

Okay peeps, wish me luck, eh? By the way, I'm in my novel-marathon. Hehe! :)

Far yet close, close yet far fetch

Kadang-kadang, bila rasa jauh, kita dekat rupa-rupanya.

Bila rasa dekat, kita jauh sebenarnya.

That's exactly what I feel right now. Sounds like it'll be difficult to accept, kan? But that's what we call reality. Reality hurts, truth bites. It is ouch-ing! When it's far, but actually we're close, it still nice to be heard (sweet reality). But, when we're close but far from reach, it does hurt (so badly).

I just can't believe it that I'm in here for the second time! I've been a free bird months ago, and now, I flew back to the cage! I know it can happen just in a split of second. That's why I didn't manage to think-before-snare! But I'm still under control as this is my second and I have the lesson on the first. I'm stronger, insya-Allah.

Still, nothing bad happen. Just everything happens as usual. I think I must get accustomed to it. Keep reminding myself about the truth, about how it actually goes. About my position, who am I in every aspect. Duh! It really sounds like desperate and pathetic. But, that's only I can do, for myself for not to being hurt more deeper than now.

Okay peeps, need to do some readings now (nothing beneficial literally). For at least to find some distraction, can't I? Okay, anyeong! :) *grin*

School break, here we go

Here I am, reached the last day of first semester. And of course, school break! Two weeks off school. Rest everything up after exhausted living my school day. The most important is that midterm exam is over! Alhamdulillah. :) What's the upcoming, I feel like not to think 'bout it for these two weeks. It's chill time, bebeh!

So, I will take this opportunity to get what's undone things done! And not forgetting that pile of homework or can be said as a replica of Everest? Haha, not really. It's not that much. I can take my time. Slow and steady, huh? So, I can hit my novels, can? Berbelas-belas of them unread (waiting to be read). Hee, exciting! I want to list up everything to be done, tomorrow kut? Oh ya, Physics class on Monday and Tuesday *slapping forehead*

Hmm, actually I'm bit free this school break because I've pull out myself from the list name of pertandingan kawad kaki. It's not my willing to do so, just 'something' quite not allowing me to do so. I admit, I'm a bit disappointed but I believe that every cloud has it's silver lining, ye tak? We can't always have what we want, that's just how life is. I need to keep that in my mind, ketat-ketat!

Just like today, I'm kinda feel something's not going right or not going to be right. Yeah, I admit there bad things today, and the good ones too! Life need to be balance, kan? Firstly, my last paper was very hard but I care for my freedom more. Dah tak larat nak pandang buku dah! Then, it was a bit misunderstanding back then, but it ended great and I get a 'bonus' too. Glad for it.

Then, things go eventually okay and not okay, something like that. It was the last day for my last year class's teacher in our school. She's going to move to other state for a particular reason. We held a very simple farewell party. Just eating cupcakes, taking photos, giving cards since she is too busy to get her things done on her very last day. Salawati da' iman maaki, cikgu. Sayonara! Besides I met my already-moved friends too. Hanged-out for a quite some times. :)

Been waiting for 'someone' (best friend, okay?), but we ended up disappointedly. She didn't show up. At last we played this game we get (curi idea) from Love Rain's drama. To test keserasian between two people (polka dot's idea, haha!) We got tested together, it was very fun. It was like they name two things and as soon after that we must say out which one do we like. We got quite much of same results! We're awesome, aren't we? :)

Haa, this a bit different. Two happy things after one. Firstly, unexpected unexpected. Then, the friend who didn't show up earlier called me and explained why she didn't and we have a chat for quite some time. Then, jeng jeng jeng unhappy's turn, I saw 'something' that told me that I was totally have had drowned in my fantasy. So, all I need to do is quickly wake up. Ohh, please! *patting my cheeks with eyes wide open*

Just stay up, okiedokie Liz? Even I'm about to turn to a zombie! *less sugar smile*

Calling for freedom

One more paper to go and I’m done, I’m free! Can’t wait to get out of this hypertension situation. Wallowing in the exam mood like a geek. Study like them, but it wasn’t at all. It was like, I’m half flawed in this whole exam. Hmm, what I can do now is just wait and see. Think less bout it, moreover it has passed.  There’s no use to cry over split milk. I’ve done my part and just let the others get done, ye tak?

Settle bout that, and that’s why I say I’m going to be free soon. Yeah, free. Just bout this. Never my feeling nor my mental (wah, sounds like a mental patient). I know I never would. Sometimes I feel like I’m flying to the sky’s very limit. And suddenly I can fall just like that, and of course it hurts. Thousand times I told myself not to overjoy something yet I keep doing it. Showing straight away how stupid am I, kan?

See, like right now, it’s a total nothing yet I feel something. I feel like an abnormal feeling like this. When it is ordinary I feel it’s special. When it’s nothing I feel like a failure. But actually both are just an usual ordinary. It just me who create my own fantasy. Feel like an idiot to know this. But as I promised to myself, I won’t regret, and I really don’t. It was fun back then. Why not just bersyukur atas nikmat yang sementara tu, kan? :)

Just like I’ve ruined my 'I ♥ U' cupcakes just now, that is just like how I ruin everything inside me. Drop everything now, there’s no more unexpected unexpected. Let’s jump then fall and be realistic instead of creating my own fantasy. Time’s up, just get out.

Okay peeps, I’m really worn out these days, I haven’t sleep well, lack of sleep, exhausted because of this exam fever. Study up to 1 a.m last night. I can be a cute panda if I stay being like this, huhu! My stomach is singing right now, haha. So, I’d better get some sleep to reenergize everything plus lessen my hunger. Aum! Bye, peeps! :)

That's how I love my life

They are cute, aren't they? But they can't be seen clearly because I didn't open the trace yet, haha! :) They look so yummy and appetizing, didn't they? Too bad I can't eat them right now. But to think it wasn't that bad as I can't eat them for a very good reason.


Actually I'm fasting in Rajab month. It's my second day in fact. I should be glad because as Allah said -who so observes fast (even one day) during the month of Rajab gets Allah's pleasure. :) So why not kita sama-sama beramal dalam bulan Allah ni? It's a great month to repent too, for seeking forgiveness for what have we done.


Selamat beramal then, peeps! :D Wallahu 'alam.

Gloomy, sorrow, melancholy?

So I've heard that episode 12 of this drama is way too gloomy. So, let's watch and see how far is the rumor can be true and how will it affect me, huh? And of course I don't like Hana and Seo Jun ended up like that, just like that. Thereto, it was that they started to like each other for seriously. So touching and cheesy, ey? Yet I love cheesy. ♥

Let's take the challenge, okiedokie? :P


[Edit] Okay, fine. It did teared me up~ (just finish watched and update right away)

Again and again

I keep thinking of you, I can't help it

Suddenly, I think of you and I smile

The scent that entered my heart

It still clearly remains

Just like saying I love you or I miss you

It's not that easy for me, for me

Love is caring for one another

Love is being together

Love is simply that

But you are not here now

Feelings are thinking of that person everyday

Feelings are drawing you out

Feelings will continue like this

So what do I do now?

The scent that entered my heart

It still clearly remains

Just like saying I love you or I miss you

It's not that easy for me, for me

Love is... You are not here now

Love is caring for one another

Love is being together

Love is simply that

But you are not here now

Feelings are thinking of that person everyday

Feelings are drawing you out

Feelings will continue like this

So what do I do now?

p/s: I don't know why, but I'm too crazy about this drama lately. I got carried away like seriously. Jeongmal choa-hasso!