It's a kaffarah, perhaps?

I ran out of reasons why my result (referring to my Additional Mathematics) be that bad? Was there something behind it? Something that affecting it? Until I reflect and examine the situation again, I found out that it was me who think too much about it till it affect my exam. Keep thinking that was that my fault for being hurt? Am I too much? I should be like that, shouldn't I? Who in the world can stay cool being betrayed? Being underestimated? Being brought down? Who? Anybody can tell me?

Or it was me who was too perasan, thinking I have what actually I don't even own? Wait, wait, wait! It has nothing to do with this. This is what you actually did to this situation, how you performed it. If this what people call learn from mistake, I swear, it's the hardest learning ever. Involving the feeling too much. Bukan mudah bermain dengan catur perasaan.

p/s: I've being punished just now for my result. A cane for teaching. I accept it with an open-hearted, twice. And, now I fell mush more relieve like part of my burden that I hold has flew away. Thanks to Him for this. Alhamdulillah rabbil alameen.